There are so many things going through my head at the moment, so many things.

We have less than 8 weeks to plan this wedding, and it all boils down to money, which we don't have for the type of wedding his parents want and expect. I feel like it's the most expensive route, but hey, it's all about everyone else being happy isn't it? It sucks because aside from my regular bills, I had to fork out $600 to pay my property taxes. [I didn't realize I did not pay for last years, oops] Next money I want to pay off my credit card which is a whopping $500 to clear it. [No it wasn't impulsive buying on it, strictly for apartment stuff honestly] With those recent debts haunting me, I really have no money to spare by the time we get married and neither will John really. This is where we have to put our heads together and decide what is best for us.

Work isn't helping with my stress either. Ever since they snatched Betty from me without notice, I'm left with 4 people on staff [including myself], leaving us having to work at least one day a week by ourselves without a break. I know, it's illegal but unavoidable. Starting Saturday, I'll be down a person because one is leaving for 16 days on vacation. So after my day off this Wednesday, I'll be working 20 days straight if not more until I see my next day off. And with the joys of pregnancy settling in, I'm getting exhausted easier. My boss and I had a talk today about the assistant manager spot and decided to give it to Kirk again. As soon as that goes into effect, I need to hire another person.

My worries on everything are causing me to feel ill and restless. I know beyond the gray clouds and the rain, the sun is going to come shining through eventually.

I need a soda right now, and egg drop soup, mmm.