PMA? i think not.

the charolette trip; canceled for me because of work, and my mother.

my mom has her court date really soon for when she hit that parked car last month. they extended her trial so she could get a lawyer, but she can't afford one, so she may spend up to 30 days in jail. and to top it off, she wants to kick me out because of it. she said "you and your dog can find somewhere else to live, i don't trust anyone in this house while i'm gone." wtf?

and my self esteem dropped a lot today. i got put down so bad. saying i'm a cry baby and i need to grow up. all i care about is myself and money. that my friends don't care about me, they'll never do anything for me. that my dad and rest of the family in japan don't care about me, and it shows because they haven't written since march. my mom and her bf are losers and have nothing going for them and cant even afford to pay bills. that i have nothing going for me.

and after all of that and me crying for 2 hours straight before work, i was given an apology. and i accepted, because i'm too humble. but my feelings are still hurt.