i fought the war, but the war won

i am staying in my room for a long time.
and i don't want to come out, only for work.
some people just know how to beat you down to the ground.
i need time to regain my esteem.

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intense dancing, that's all i have to say.

baby love, my baby love

mylee had a fun filled day of playing with doggies. wore her slam out.

well my mom got her court date extended until september 15th. she'll have a lawyer with her this time. which is good.


tomorrow kimmy and i are having a sleep over after the wave then heading off to richmond tomorrow. i'm stoked. some photo opps and hang time with people.

i need to get a new phone asap. mine keeps cutting off randomly when people text me, and it barely holds a charge for too long now. the other night it died while i was sleeping, WHILE IT WAS PLUGGED IN. niceeee, and that meant my alarms didn't go off and i was almost really late for work. so yeah, new phone is definitely in store real soon. i just don't want to have to renew my contract again just to get it cheaper. oh well.

virginia suxxx

my mother might be going to jail tomorrow, i don't know what to do or say about that one. she backed into someone's parked car and got a wreckless driving ticket. she was using a friends car who gave her permission, but too bad the car wasn't even in her friend's name and it was uninsured. so that just added to my mom's ticket. she talked to a lawyer and they said the minimum would be 10 days in jail, i don't know about the maximum. but my mom couldn't afford the lawyer so she'll be representing herself tomorrow. i don't know, i just don't know. what am i supposed to do?

i mean, they should be locking people up who kill people and what not. my mom got her license suspended already for this. i think that's enough. or at least give her a fine that she'd have to pay, but lock her up? wtf virginia?!

there's a lot on my mind now, but this is the thing that's been bugging me the most.

word of mouf

so my question of the day is; why are green grapes given then name "white grape"?
i've googled it, i've asked people about it, and i have yet to find a convincing answer.
so if anyone out there has the one true answer, enlighten me please.

a co-worker asked me today, "are you pregnant?",
i guess because i was snacking on 2 muffins this morning?
i said "heaven's no, i haven't done the hanky panky to get pregnant, i just couldn't choose between the pistachio or the corn bread muffin, so i got both."
the nerve of people!


speaking of people, i guess i had been dubbed 'drama queen' because i slip away from existence for a few weeks at a time. i don't really see where i'm being dramatic if i separate myself from everyone. maybe i want to bring attention to myself? no! maybe i'm depressed? no! maybe she really just hates everyone? no! the real reason i suddenly stop talking to people for a few weeks is because either i feel like i'm getting pulled into situations i shouldn't be in, or i don't agree with choices people currently made, or i just need time to myself and a break from reality. over the past few months a lot has been going on that really got me digging a deeper hole. between her boyfriend troubles, their friendship quarrels, their triangles, and me loosing a chance at someone who really cared about me; i just didn't like how anything was turning out. i'm the type that likes to get along with everyone. and it's been so hard lately!

anyway, what i'm trying to get at is i don't hate anyone so don't make any assumptions.
i've been disappointed in a lot of people, but i do not hate anyone, nor dislike anyone.



i need a nap...

silence of the.. tecktonik?

yeah i was bored, and messed with my picture, not too shab.

i've had innerpartysystem "don't stop" stuck in my head all day.
along with yelle "je veux te voir".



i won't take sides, i love them all dearly;
i'm worried on all behalfs, i feel like i'm in the center.
i just hope something works out and it all blows away.

cliche

yeah i figured i'd go ahead and switch to this,
i've had my xanga since 2004, too many memories.
we'll see, i may go back.